New and overwhelmed (28w4d)

I ended up in the hospital with severe preeclampsia and delivered my baby girl by C section yesterday morning at 28 weeks 4 days. I haven’t been able to see her yet because of magnesium/etc.I’m super overwhelmed because obviously I was not expecting this. The recovery room they put me in has generic stuff on the white board like “car seat” as a condition for me to be discharged, which seems ridiculous. I don’t have a breast pump or anything. A lactation consultant tried to come in and show me how to hand express when I was only a few hours post-op and I couldn’t keep my eyes open, so I had to say I needed time because I literally couldn’t keep my eyes open to learn from her. She left stuff, but I don’t know what any of it is really (collection tubes and stuff).When I do get to see my baby, I don’t think I can hold her yet? They told my husband they don’t want her head to move for 72 hours.I’m also upset because I’m going to be spending my limited unpaid leave on surgical recovery and not with my baby. I don’t even know when she’ll get to leave the hospital.I feel like I don’t know anything and I’m really struggling with it all. via /r/NICUParents https://ift.tt/F19RAe8