Depression and ADHD during pregnancy

I’m not sure what I’m looking for encouragement, solidarity, or resources but I feel like I’m struggling so much. I’m a mental health professional and I feel ashamed that I’m such a mess and can’t even seem to help myself.I have a 1.5 year old, am 26 weeks pregnant, and I work full time. I have lots of support from my in laws but none from my parents as I am keeping a distance from them due to the stress they caused me during my last pregnancy.I have always had trouble keeping up with household chores and duties, I have ADHD and it’s just always been a struggle. Now I feel like pregnancy is making it even worse, I’m forgetful, I have 0 energy. My husband likes to have a clean house and he is picking up all my slack and he is understandably very frustrated. Our marriage is struggling. Due to his own stressors he really isnt able to support me much right now. I miss him, miss our relationship, and worry itll never be the same. My friends are distant. I feel so alone. I feel like a failure as a mom and as a parent. I love my babies more than anything in the world and they deserve a strong mom who doesn’t struggle so much. I cry all the time and I dont want my daughter to have to see me like that. At the end of the day I know I will be okay and that I can handle it all. I do have a therapist but only can afford to see her once a month. I am not interested in medication during pregnancy unless absolutely necessary.Anyone on the other side of this have any positive things to share or words of encouragement? Similar experiences? Resources or other ways you coped? via /r/BabyBumps https://ift.tt/tF3AcvP