CPAP Nasal Cannulas – Difficulty coping with my daughters pain

Every time they put the CPAP Nasal Cannulas in it horrifies me with the size of it. Based on my daughters reaction my horror feels justified… The most painstaken screams I ever hear from her, and then her eyes start watering. When I go home at night I still hear her screams. It’s most heartbreaking that she feels the discomfort when I do Kangaroo care. I feel she think’s I’m betraying her by causing her so much discomfort, and I shouldn’t hold her when she has the nasal cannula in. They say the full mask might put an indent on her face, but what about the indent of psychological trauma that such pain leaves on the brain? I’m so worried she will develop an anxiety disorder 🙁 I wish they would use the high flow, smaller nasal prongs and switch back and forth from high flow to full mask CPAP… How have you coped with this scenario?? via /r/NICUParents https://ift.tt/Cm9dnlf