Baby choked and seized today

I’m still coming down from what happened today, and trying to make sense of everything. My 12 month old son was standing by me while I sat on the couch, and I was eating a breakfast sandwich. My son is a bit of a scavenger when we eat in front of him, so my husband and I will break him off tiny pieces of our food for him to have. I was doing just that with some of the cheese, when I gave him a very tiny piece his face became blank and he started starring off, then all of a sudden he went limp and his head tilted back. I immediately thought he was choking, so I started doing back blows, but nothing was coming up so I flipped him over as I was calling 911. His eyes were rolled in the back of his head and he turned blue and started foaming at the mouth. I can’t remember if he was making any noise at this point, or convulsing as I was trying to care for him and speak to 911. About 2-3 minutes in he came to and started crying and was also extremely confused. The hospital thinks he may have choked on the cheese and the lack of oxygen threw him into a seizure, or it was a febrile seizure, since he had a slight temp the other day, but were a bit cautious to say that was the case since he didn’t have a fever at the hospital or at all today. To say I am traumatized is an understatement. I was home alone when this all happened and ran to a neighbors house after calling 911 with him. I know I did everything correct, and baby is fine now but I can’t help to feel I failed him. We still don’t have concrete proof of what it was and I’m terrified it will happen again. One thing is for sure though I will NEVER feed him outside of his highchair now. via /r/NewParents https://ift.tt/ZJpdz0W