30 Groundhog Days

30 days of nonstop beeping, wires tangling, temperature checks, asking permission to hold our baby, asking how he’s progressing, asking what we can do, asking what more can be done and being told to give him time. 30 days of coming up with plans, trying new things and hoping something will work. 30 days of meeting new nurses and doctors along with everyone in between every single day, keeping a note on my phone of names trying to remember them all. 30 days of watching other babies graduate, going home and wishing that was us. Having to leave the NICU because watching other parents be able to walk out with their baby was too hard to witness. 30 days of feeling guilty for leaving one of our boys to be with the other and always feeling divided. 30 days of putting him back in his crib at the NICU and having to leave him behind.30 days and our oldest has yet to meet his brother due to hospital policy. 30 days and the doctors no longer mention the word discharge. 30 days of endless waiting. via /r/NICUParents https://ift.tt/Al59FgH