Having a baby in the NCIU is a lonely mental place to be

Friday, 5/18 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy at 37 weeks. Birth was a bit traumatic but all in all everyone made it out unscathed. There were some breathing and jaundice concerns so he is now on the NCIU for a couple of days out of precaution. I was discharged yesterday and I am now lost. I visit every chance I can (we live about 25 min away) and I know he is in the best place but it is such a lonely and weird place to be in. When I visit I hold and snuggle him but he also has to stay under the lights (jaundice lights) so mostly I can only just sit and stare. I guess I am here writing this because only mothers can know this emotion. My husband has been very supportive but it’s almost a chemical need/want for my baby. I am standing in my kitchen writing this not knowing what to do with myself. I left for the hospital with him in my womb but came home without him. I am very thankful he is healthy and thriving (I couldn’t even imagine the reverse) but just needed some mom support. via /r/NICUParents https://ift.tt/yluOZhE